Reflective Statement

 Reflective Statement:

My first University assignment. I fount it moderately stressful. The toughest part about this assignment was getting into the flow of work. A lot of things are different than college and It took some getting used to. I hate blogger so much. Joking. Blogger has been stressful to use though. I was unsure how to present and surprised about the amount of alone time this would take and something I need to get used to. Within this assignment I moved into student accommodations as I moved later than everyone else. Some personally stuff have come up. I know this isn't appropriate but my friends have just been trying to do stuff with me a lot. Compared to the 6 weeks we just had of they barely talked to me. Saying no to them is hard and something I've been having to do. It makes me feel awful but I want to do well in university. I hope they understand but oh well. Balancing doing University work at home is hard and should of probably done more at home.

Doing work from home like I said has been hard but I've been able to do it couples of times and still trying to get in the flow of it. Settling in to university has been a weird expirence. I work from the flow and when I do things, I have to make it a schedule or a habit/flow of doing it. And university being different from college has thrown me off. But I have been getting in the habit of doing work from home but it isn't enough just yet. I have to ease myself into stuff rather than jump into the deep end. This frustrates me as people around me don't quite understand and I feel mocked sometimes even if they aren't mocking me. This affects my confidence a lot. Confidence has affected me art within this assignment. Stopping me from doing stuff which would improve my art due to confidence in my ability to do art. You can see the affects this has within my artwork. I need to improve on this and do more environment art and find ways where other people don't affect my confidence so easily which I don't know where to start to be honest. To be more optimistic, I am getting into the flow of university and understand what i8t's expecting from me more. I expected university to be more clear of what It needs from me. And from the assignment I got to understand that a lot more. I'm happy with my work.

To be more specific with my thought on my work. Next time just jump to do the harder stuff and figure it out and not shy away from it. It's frustrating that I even did shy away from it. But it's lesson to be taught. Doing 100 initial sketches stressed me out. I'm more of a person who does less initial sketches but it's still important to do so. I hope my writing is fine. Writing is my weakness not because of knowing what to write but more punctuation and spelling. My biggest worry is I had a dumb moment and did something wrong because I have those dumb moments. I don't know why or how but they just happen. I try to work around them when they do but still frustrates me. In Conclusion, I feel this assignment is going to be a learning curve of university as a whole and I expect it to get harder from here on. Thank you for going through my assignment. Peace.